April Showers

It is April and I am 21

I am happy

I am healthy—well my ear wouldn't pop after the plane ride to California and it's taken all the strength in me to not touch my growing fingernails, but I am alive.

I'm in California

That puppy in the picture wasn't as nice as she appears

I still don't know everything

but I know what I want and what I need

I am full of hope. Hopeful 

But I am also afraid of hope because I daydream too often and plan too much 

My hope is a kite that I keep reeling back in and I've only ever really flown a kite once but this a metaphor so go with it. 

I am 21 and still feel 12 some days

Also saw Interstellar last night so that may be the reason for all this weird talk

Bye